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18 June 2008 @ 02:00 am

:: Friends Only ::

No one has done anything. There's no reason to be alarmed. After some careful contemplation, I've merely come to realize that some of the stuff that I post here can be very private. Indeed, I suppose I could merely lock these posts from public viewing, but I've tried that already. Everything is connected somehow and I no longer want to have to categorize my posts as 'mundane day to day' things and 'personal life issues.'

If you are interested in reading though, feel free to leave me a comment. I just like to have some idea of who is here. Chances are I'll let you in. :)

C'mon, I dare you.

Thanks for understanding.
07 June 2008 @ 02:01 am
Have a job interview on Tuesday with L'Occitane. Like most potential employers tend to do, they call me when I'm still sleeping. I put the numbers of all my potential employers in my phone though, so when they eventually do call early in the morning, I have a slight warning to compose myself and clear my throat of morning muck. Really hoping I get the job.

It's getting harder and harder to cope day to day without Angelo. A lot of mixed feelings inside these days. I think only time will tell where things will lead. I've been having a lot of dreams lately about future possibilities for our relationship. They've made me emotional and make my defenses against letting the needy through wane.

I really want to get out of Canada again. Get out of Canada and start a nice, semi-fresh life somewhere else. Maybe in Florida. Or something. But speaking of getting out, a friend of mine that I've known for a small while is moving downtown and is looking for a roommate. I am so absolutely tempted.

And that is all.
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Current Location: Home
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
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04 June 2008 @ 02:45 am
Current Location: Home
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01 June 2008 @ 03:00 am
After a dreadfully long and particularly unpleasant flight, I am happy to say that I am back home in Vancouver. No, I didn't just get home, but this is the first opportunity that I've had (and wanted) to actually write anything here.

Japan was great. I will dedicate an entire post to how great it was later.

Bittersweet these days. With the euphoria of being in Japan subsiding, I am gradually coming back to terms with my life again. Angelo is not here and will not be back until December, unless he chooses to take a short vacation in August or so. To say that I miss him is an understatement, but this is an important experience for him in terms of developing his education and career.

Conversations over the phone have revealed that he is feeling lonely as of late. I can understand the challenges of being in an unfamiliar place, especially if said place is practically in the middle of nowhere. At least we've been trying to keep close by playing Age of Conan. With this aside, well, it has been difficult for both of us. Especially him, I think.

I need to be up early, so I am going to wrap this short. It's just great to be back.
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27 May 2008 @ 01:26 pm
Well, I'm sitting here in a Starbucks at the Narita airport in Tokyo. There are many noisy female youngsters being loud as they giggle to themselves before ordering their drinks. There are also a lot of extremely hip, stylishly dressed guys talking amongst themselves a few tables over.

Yep. Definitely Japan.

I was up at 4:25am this morning to check out of my hotel and catch the first 5:03am train from Osakajoko-en station. From the main Osaka station, I caught the 5:57am 'airport limousine' to Itami airport, idling a while before flying to Narita. I arrived here at Narita at about 10:30am. It's 1:30pm now and my connecting flight to Vancouver doesn't start boarding procedures until around 5:00pm.

So I am bored.

Purchased some headphones at a gift shop, although later discovered that the cable was incompatible with my iPhone. I should have checked first, but they weren't too expensive and I may find a use for them back at home. Further shopping is not advisable because I have spent far too much money already on food and souvenirs.

The entire trip here was definitely something to remember. Being on my own in Osaka - after the program ended - I felt a sense of unfamiliar freedom. I no longer had to wake up at 7:30am to finish a fishy breakfast by 8:00am. No longer had to worry about maintaining the brisk walking pace as the group went from temple to temple through city to city. Indeed, sleeping in was an unusual experience. Deciding what to eat from the room service menu especially so.

But walking through the streets of Osaka and taking the the trains through the various districts has been a memorable experience. I definitely had fun. It is a little lonely though. The silence and the absence of the group is difficult to deal with. I wish Angelo was here with me to share the sights. I'll bring back these memories through pictures.

A pair of sharp looking salary men have just purchased themselves a pair of black coffees. They argue quietly to themselves and take their leave. Definitely Japan.

Ho hum, indeed. Back home to Vancouver soon. Back home to life. Back home to Fiona.
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10 May 2008 @ 09:36 pm
So I've finally made it to Japan.

Well, I've actually been here for a while now. Only now have I gotten the chance to log on and catch up on my social networking.

At any rate, a full report will be be conjured up before too long. I'm happy, if not a little sad from missing Angelo. Japan has been so inspiring so far. I feel as if I've tapped into some deep, hidden pool inside of myself. I'm being myself. I feel at ease here. It would only be perfect if he were here.

But I'm still having a great time and will not let this predicament get in the way of my having a good time.

I was attacked by a monkey though. Visited Arashiyama mountain in Kyoto. Lots of monkeys there. I'll go into more details later. Let's just say that that the monkey was grumpy and started hissing.

I will try to keep things up to date as best I can, but like I said, it will be a challenge to keep things up to date with a lack of PC.
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